Friday, January 26, 2007
why do i always have this feeling that whatever i do (or not), whatever i look like i'm always being put down?? am i really that bad??first there are the church friends. always saying i'm short. i mean look around, just cos you guys are giants doesnt really mean i'm that short. i mean i know i'm shorter then average, but you guys say it so often that i feel like i'm some kind of midget. and it's not just the church ppl, at school it happens too, but they're not as mean about it.. so anw, i'm like the same height as hilary, but they nv insult her... then when i tell them that, the insults then move on to my fashion choices. like how hilary dresses better then me so she looks taller and slimmer. ????? it's soooo infuriating i tell you, but i dont flare up in front of them cos grace will just say i'm having another 'hissy fit'. sigh...then there's school. actually not school, just shiyin. i know she'll be reading this but i'm still gonna say this. sometimes i really cant stand her..it's like she's always thinking so low of me, saying i'm fat, lousy, not smart. commenting on my clothes, my taste in shows and songs and how i'm behind time cos i dont have mtv and stuff. saying my house sucks, saying my class sucks, saying that it's sad that i didnt fail pe. i mean i know she's joking with me lah but..it's still really annoying. i mean in nanyang, i just kept it all in but i dont think i can anymore. it's just too much. she's in my face sayin those stuff at school, on my blog tagging and tagging and defending herself, like she's going to after she reads this post. like today after assembly, i was waiting outside the hall cos i had to return denise her book and i couldnt find her so i just looked for her purple hadley house shirt lah. scanning the crowd coming out. then suddenly shiyin's in my face saying how my waddle shirt is ugly and looks like yellow shit cos it is.. i was like really mad but i didnt want to make a scene so i just defended myself lah. then argue argue until i couldnt be bothered so i just walked away and looked for denise but obviously i had missed her while shiyin was criticising my house lah..i was sooo mad.ok, so today had inter house games opening in the morning, i got to wear my waddle house shirt!!! soo cute..then the house capts were the mcs, grace zhang really verrrry cute!! and funny.. could hear the teachers behind me laughing at her..haha.then went to watch charlotte's web after school..was quite nice but i was sooo tired that i fell asleep at parts of the movie lahh..so wasted. anw, tmr got psl session..yayyy!!! cant wait. oh and gonna go play with grace zhang tmr again in house prac..double yayy!!!
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Friday, January 26, 2007
