Saturday, September 29, 2007

WOW.

just one word, WOW(:

i really dontknow how to explain it, the way God just touched me today. it was just like so amazing. the best feeling in the world, no doubt abt it(:

maxine had ppt duty, and being the twitzxzx that she was, me and grace had to help her.hahah we were all as confused till suipoon informed us of the numbers and stuff. ahahahah. guess he's useful in some way!

then we had message by pastor adrian, abt faith. yeah and then more worship, meaning maxine had to go back and do again. me and grace tagged along, just in case she screwed up. hahah. but i just stood there and sang lah.

then altar call again. and this time i just felt Him like "pushing" me to go front. and so i just did it. with grace's ginormous ripples on my feet. hahah(:

yeah it was just like awesome worship at the altar. though i was near to the drums with euclid, i.e it was really loud. hahah(:

and then all the tears just came. like i have no explanation, but it was just so good knowing that God was just there for me. then i heard some offkey singing behind me [joking!] so i knew that maxine has come forward too(: and was really touched(:

then pastor came to pray for me. he held my hands, through my jacket cos i knew i had sweaty palms(: but yeah i was really crying and crying.

and once he finished praying for me, and saw i was still crying uncontrollably, he was like, "nana come and hug her" hahah so cute(:

and then nana came to pray for me, while i was still crying. she was praying in half-tongues, half english. and it just seemed like all my problems were solved. and she prayed for the Holy Spirit to fill me. wow the feeling of happiness in me was like indescribable(:

and normally i'm not that close to nana, but at that time, it was just so comforting to have her hugging me, assuring me it would be ok.

and i told her my problems and she just prayed for me. and the line that just struck me was

Lord just help diane not to care what others think, and just to do everything
for YOU.

yeah something like that. [and everything includes STUDYING]one of the songs we sang, beautiful saviour had one line in relation to that.

Name above every name

yeah i mean, we've sung that song like uncountable number of times, but today it just struck me. like not only is HIS name the HIGHEST, but it's above ALL OTHER NAMES. like EVERY OTHER NAME IN THIS WORLD. yeah, and i was just so _____[i've run out of emotions to describe. haha]

and then after nana finished praying, she sung abit. and then prayed for me again. and obviously i didnt understand tongues, but it made me cry even more. dont ask me why.

and i mean the feeling of being close to God, knowing he'll never leave you, knowing that we can always put our trust and faith in Him, it's just sososososo GOOD. a really nice feeling in your heart.

and like after nana prayed for me, she just fell to the floor. and at that moment, i just thanked God for putting her in my life. yeah lots of times i wondered if she was a good mentor, cos we werent very close to her. but today, i take back all the stuff i thought abt her as a mentor. cos she just really helped me to feel His presence(:

yeah lots of ppl got slain today, cedric and zestin too. and i just thank God for touching so many ppl, ofcourse including those who werent slain(:

and i wasnt slain, but hey i'm not complaining. though when nana was praying for me with one hand on my shoulder and one hand on my forehead, my legs were like trembling.

and i think it was the first time that i never ever wanted the worship to end. like i didnt feel xian or anything, and i just wanted to worship forever. it's like such a great feeling(:

after the service, everyone went back. and i was still crying. i still dontknow why. but nana hugged me and brought me to the toilet. maxine and grace came down to "comfort" me. and i was like, i'm ok.

but when i tried to cough [which is what i always do when there's awkward silence], i just started sobbing again.

after awhile i was ok lah(: i mean i wasnt crying cos i was sad. i was crying cos it was just such an awesome [almost]encounter with His presence(: and i was really happy later(:

i regret all the times i've doubted His existence, doubted His power, doubted Him working in my life. after today's experience,i wonder how i ever doubted when his existence in my life was like SO obvious. i really hope i nv doubt EVER again.

this experience is really smth i cant explain with human words. which would be the reason that this post sounds incoherent. but i just had to tell of God's goodness in some way(:

i totally dont regret going for today's altar call AT ALL.

!stepping in
Saturday, September 29, 2007

Saturday, September 29, 2007

that scream

farewell

turning point

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