Thursday, September 27, 2007
yeah, didnt get the jpsl thing):
i mean it didnt come as such a great shock or surprise to me lah. butbut, i just thought, like at the veryvery back of my mind, "hey, maybe i'll be pleasantly surprised(: maybe they liked something abt me..."
that kinda stuff. but ohwell! i guess it's just not God's plan for me(: yeah sometimes we just dont understand why certain things happen, but His ways are higher, so we never have to worry(: cos there's always hope, knowing He's looking out for us(:
and i quote a verse from laura's blog:
"for i know the plans I have for you", declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you
and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11-12
i mean, i'm still human. i admit i had that feeling of being let down [though obviously He doesnt owe me anything!] yeah, and i reallyreally didnt wanna seem like some partypooper for all the ppl around me who got in.
so i just put on a smile, a brave front and cheered for all of them. cos they're all worth it! and it's not as if it's their fault i wasnt selected right?(: which reminds me:
CONGRATS ARIEL & SAB! [future PITs!] AND JANNE AND NADDIE! [future JPSLs!]they deserve it!:D
yeah, it's just all mixed emotions lah. on one hand i didnt really wanna get it, knowing i wouldnt be able to handle it. but on the other, i was just secretly hoping smth would happen cos imagining myself as a jpsl made me really highhhh at times(: hehhh.
i wanna live a life without "what ifs" and "i wishes", and just live by
TRUST and
FAITH(:
OHWELL. emo moment over and done with(: hehhh. i just reallyreally hope i never ever ever doubt His ways ever ever again(: COS HE KNOWS WHAT'S BEST FOR ME!
!stepping in
Thursday, September 27, 2007
